Why I love being a CD/TV, for many reasons, let's start by stating I am very shy, timid and reserved white male who has been diagnosed with Aspberger's Syndrome, so I miss out with the social skills and graces and social cues on how to communicate with the opposite sex/gender and form relationships with women in particular. So I was and still am a misfit and outsider from the mainstream. So as male it all falls the male to earn a good living and have a nice car and have good looks in order to get attention from the ladies. If you don't have any of those traits, you most likely to be disregarded as not worthy of the ladies attention. Then there is the nerve to get up to ask the ladies out on a date. So then you go to the lady and ask her out and see what the consequences are, if you rejects, that hurts and people have told me not to take it personally but with Aspberger's, it is very hard to not take personally. So I felt like I was never going to understand the opposite sex/gender until I was in their shoes.

One day like in my blog, I go into a fight and lost to a bully who had me admit to being a sissy. Only then did I learn what it meant to be a sissy, "effeminated male", so I needed to know what it felt like to be girl/woman by getting into their clothes and their lifestyle. So I started by getting my first pair of panties and trying them on, then it started to do something to do me like made me feel very feminine and then I wanted more of it. So then I started to go out and buy more feminine clothing like bras and pantyhose, especially pantyhose with panties under, totally got me into the scene and the feeling and thinking like the girls. Then I went further into getting skirts and blouses and high heels and makeup. Going full tilt into becoming a girl. It totally consumed me. Having those clothes on and looking into the mirror and seeing Judy made think I understand the other side. So I really enjoyed seeing and feeling my other side of mirror and feeling femi